It's funny, I was trying to kill time before I went to bed when all of the sudden it hit me that I wanted to listen to Symphonies of Gaia. I love that song. I've played tons of music, and listened to more, but none have the power to move me so consistently. I think there are a number of reasons that Symphonies has so much power. Part of it is that it is such a beautiful song, so quiet and mysterious at the beginning, almost mystical, building to a powerful triumphant climax. I think anyone listening would be hard pressed not to be taken in by the beauty of the piece. What makes it even more special to me though is the memories that flood back when I hear it. '04, Halifax, The Elements. I can say with absolute certainty that The Elements was the best field show I have ever been a part of. It's true that our evening fanfare performance wasn't technically as clean as our afternoon one, but the emotional peak was higher than anything else I have ever experienced. I can remember standing on the field and seeing peoples mouths drop open when we started to sing. I remember looking around and seeing tears on the faces of the people around me, and on the faces of people in our audience. Never before had I been part of something that touched so many people so intimately, and I never have been since. Listening to this song reminds me why I'm in band, it reminds me why I put so much effort into it and why I push through even when rehearsal is shitty. More, it helps me to remember that it is possible to experience, and create unimaginable beauty, and that is an extremely comforting thought. Even when things are confusing or painful or lousy, Symphonies of Gaia makes me certain that things can and will be better and beautiful.

A certain someone thinks that I'm the worst thing on 2 legs. Sorry but I don't agree with this. I've looked at the situation from all kinds of angles, I can think of a few things I could have done better, this is true. But noone is perfect, we all make mistakes. On the flip side, I can think of many worse things that I could have done, that could make me as bad as I am being accused of being.
If you think I'm a terrible person thats too bad. Life goes on. I tried to do the right thing, call me when you're perfect. I had a couple choice words, a couple choice songs, that I was going to throw out here. But I've changed my mind. That would be petty and only serve to prove the point. I will invite you to look through some of the previous posts here though. I think its clear that I had been put through my own pain at your hands earlier, think about that before making more accusations.

II have been thinking about posting for a while now. really really. For serious. The thing id I've been trying to avoid stuff thats all negative and "whine whine, I'm confused, life isn't easy..." But when I'm in a good mood I'vegot better things to do :p So now I'm compromising! Yay! Things seem to have smoothed out, at least for the short term which is rockin. If all goes well I'll be a supervisor by this time next month, which means a substantial raise. And I love money. Seriously, who doesn't want a little extra cash? I have a ton of TV on DVD that I need to watch. Currently in the line up are Arrested Development: Season 3, The Office (American): Season 1, Buffy: Season 2. I also can't find my disc 3 for My Name Is Earl. Shit. If ya like the TV on DVD and want to chill and watch some or orchestrate a trade get in touch. Also, I missed LOST on wednesday. If anyone has a recording of it (I don't care how you got it) I would provide all manner of favors for an opportunity to see it. Conversly, if you watched LOST and are going to try to tell me what happened I will fucking kill you. Deal? Deal

Frosh Camp was great fun. I really enjoyed being a 4th, its nice to not have to wait for years in line to get your meals. I feel like I got to know a few frosh better but, #1 is still somewhat of an enigma, as is Cathy. I really wan't to get to know these two better, cuz they certainly don't seem like bad kids, Just quiet, at least around us. Talking with the frosh on the bus tide home was great, got to know a whole bunch of new people a little better, which is really what the weekend was supposed to be about right?

Now I'm in class and hating it, I don't mind history, don't get me wrong. But the guy next to me seems to be a stranger to showering, or at least soap. He is one stinky motherfucker, and that makes class a bitch!

So that big thunderstorm was pretty cool eh??? Not really, fuckin thing killed my router so I am without internet untill my dad gets how to fix and reconfigure the goddamn thing. Other than that things are going quite well. Really my biggest problem is that I'm going to be poor untill next friday as I buggered up my pay schedule, thought I got paid last week, that was very wrong. The Contra, Trombone and friends Extravaganza tentatively slated for the 19th looks like a go so far. We really neeed to get things all straightned out though. Get in touch with me on my cell (Get the # from someone who knows, I am NOT posting it, that would be dumb.) Scotty I'm hoping you can get this and step up to the plate. Without internet I'm a little buggered. We need contact info for all the new frosh as well as anyone else we want to come. I'm going to suggest that anyone that can should try to keep in touch with steve. He doesn't have internet at home (cuz he lives with me) but he does on his phone and at work so we should be able to make things work. Talk to me people!! We need to party! Also hello and welcome back to all deviants!! I should be netted again by NEXT tuesday but I'm not gonna hold my breath. Parties Rock, you should come.